I do not know what happen

I did not even think it will happen

but i am hoping to stop it as early as i can.

I do not want to hurt anyone

I do not want to break the promise i had

I am losing myself

I am terribly going under the world of insanity

My heart is beating so fast

I want to say stop but it has it’s own brain

I do not like what’s happening

I am really stuck on the situtaion

I do not want to say this word but damn i hate myself!

I walk up yesterday with a smile in my heart

The emptiness i felt before was filled by your secret love

My insanity suddenly come along and cried without a reason

I slap my face to wake up the  angel sleeping inside me

I jump into the air and breath deeply

Oh, what a mysterious life i have

My hand now is waiting for your soft touch

I never thought that destiny will bring us together secretly

I know that sunshine will not always be there

but I believe  i am holding another sunshine for us

I know valentine’s day is not everyday

but i believe Santa Clause will always be there to give me gift

Dead or live i am wanted

I shoot stupid cupid

I broke his dream

Sorry, i got no choice

Cut my tongue

I won’t say the real reason

Cut my flesh

I will be Thankful

Cut my hair

I won’t get mad

Cut my finger

I will be strong

I have roller coaster of emotion

So, please stupid cupid stop running after me

Cry me a river

I won’t say yes

Sorry, stupid cupid i dump you

If i don’t, It will be the biggest mistake of my life

Please your already dead

So, stop your ghost from spying me.

No matter how hard you try,  tears keeps on falling.

No matter how hard you try, you cannot bring back the confidence.

No matter how hard you try, you cannot easily bring back the self respect.

No matter how hard you try , you cannot have the hope.

No matter how hard you try to give your best, no one appreciate it.

No matter how hard you dedicate your life, no one will know it.

No matter how hard you give your love, no one wants to accept it.

No matter how hard you try to build a strong foundation, they keep on putting walls.

Now, is it wrong to wish for rest in peace?

Day past by

The Sunshine is not yet rising

The Feeling get worst and evil

Too hard to know

Too hard to think

Too hard to believe

But still wishing to stop

I am still insane

I want to run and feel the beat of my heart

I want to enjoy every moments of it

I want to laugh like crazy

I want to jump on the air

I guess it’s really hard to lie to yourself

I am a devil trying to be an angel

I want to have wings and spread it

I want to touch one’s life

I want to bring joy in every heart

I want to give hope

I want to be the best that i can be

but it will not happen

I am living in a dark place

All i see is brutally

It keeps on killing what’s inside me

I want to run and leave this place

but i keep on coming back

They always hold my hand

and let me fall in the middle of the fly

My heart is totally torn

I am a loser

I want to stop this

If i cannot be an angel

I want to stay with a real angel

No one lives Forever even antique dies

My heart was full of question

When can i see the land of happiness

My head veins hurt so much

It keeps on killing me every seconds, every minute and every hour

I am like one of those insane people in the street

Laughing without a reason

Laughing with so much pain

No one should be blame but me

I never think about the step i will make

I let myself fall under the ground

I let myself hurt my mind so much

I let myself heart so much

I am totally living with vain

If the time comes that i will received my invitation

Please, let me leave a note for them

I want to write about love

but i do not know how to start

Suddenly, i told myself

What a silly person i am

I just need to see what’s inside my heart

Finally, i have something to write

Write about what i really feel for you

I told my brain to describe you but it never followed me.

I told my heart to tell me what i really feel, it answered me

“No exact words can describe the real feeling i have for you”

I realize its more than the word but a meaningful love.

The bottle of wine still leaves a smell

No matter how hard you try to clean it with water

Love letters can still be read

No matter how hard you erase it

A person with amnesia can still remember everything

No matter how hard you try to hide his past

A heart who turns on the left still looks for the staight direction

No matter how hard you want it to stay on the left

Things keep on showing

No matter how hard you hide it

Everything goes on the right way

No matter how hard you try to stay it on the way you want